私のあね

This song remids me of my sister. She is just a few meters away from me, but the distance between is enormous. Our relationship is so deteriorated. She has been dealing with mental illness, and even if I have the willingness to support her, we are so far away from each other. I do care of her light. I just say horrible things about her because I am a bad person. She also has flaws and qualities. She could be very insecure and sometimes somewhat selfish, but if I had to think of the purest person on Earth I think I would say it is her. She is very sensible, and it is someone who really are worth to connect with them. Her heart should beat for eternity. She shall continue living and facing problems. I know she can. I am very sorry I can not say these things, but I'm sorry if I ever hurted you. I hope we can solve our problems some day in the future, but as for now, I can only say that I DO care about your light.