Math

Me siento muy mal. ¿Por qué tengo que ser tan mala en Matemáticas? ¿Por qué mi cerebro no da para ser capaz de resolver ejercicios? You can say it is silly to be sad because of something like that. I can get better, and I can improve but even if I have been studying math for all of my life I am just stupid, I feel stupid. Why am I not like the peruvian mathematicians? Why I need to be so dumb? I feel like I am not good at anything. I feel very bad, and I HATE MATH! I HATE MATH AND PEOPLE WHO ARE GOOD AT IT! I feel I am just a girl who is pathetic and who deserve to die, and I am very angry with me! I feel horrible, I feel small, why I was born? I am not good anything. I'm just a trash. I hate math, I hate being bad at it. I hate being a woman, I hate being me. And you know what is the worst part? That I will stop crying, that I will move on, that what I feel now is temporary, and it is bad because I deserve to suffer like I am suffering right now, but not just now, everyday of my life. And with that suffering, I would be able to do something about it, I would kill myself or something. I hate being me. I hate it so much!!!!!!

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